It’s been a hot minute hasn’t it?

How are you? I know stuff is heavy right now isn’t it?

I know that a lot is going on, but right now we can’t change the World unless we start with ourselves.

I’ve personally been managing intense feelings and thoughts and even anxiety over the last year or so, so I wouldn’t be surprised if you also were feeling the same way.

What I can say, is even thought I have been working on this with as many things as I can throw at it (therapy, tools, diet, supplements, tonics, movement etc), I am nowhere near having solved it, but I am finally starting to feel more in control and in a much better place than I have been.

A big part of that is not following the news. We don’t even have a television set up to watch anything other than Netflix and that’s mostly on weekends.

I don’t read news on my devices, now that I work full time and my job revolves hanging out on Facebook, and when I am not working, I like to spend more time in the real world.

I still know what’s going on in the World but I am not living in the constant fear of something that is not happening in my current reality.

I figure if we’re supposed to learn of something then we will find out when it’s important and until then I will manage my energy in my lived reality, not whats simulated.

How else am I handling this heaviness?

Going out in nature. What am I seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting?

Today we spent most of the day working in our garden. We bought acreage before we moved back to Australia that needs a lot of work which is likely to take us months and months to get on top of. Part of the plan is for us to create a semi self sustaining property.

My 9 year old was into the weeding and raking, even giving me, a newbie greenthumb (I think that’s Aussie for gardener?) some tips she’s learnt at her new school. She has her very own cucumber plant that she’s grown with her grandmother from seeds, and it’s very close to producing.

My 11 year old, grumpily was asked to get off his electronics and declared ‘I don’t want to come out and do any farming with you guys!’ Hmm I think he meant gardening.

So this is what is happening in my reality right now. The one I’m living in, not the one that I’m being told I’m in.

The internet is such a powerful tool. Here I am chatting to you from my dining table on Sunday night in my home in Queensland, while it’s likely morning or even afternoon where you are. But sometimes it has made us too aware and hyper alert of what is and isn’t going on in the world, so we live in fear of the invisible.

This message is by no means wanting to minimise any pain anyone is experiencing right now, as there is so so much sadness and despair, I realise.

I am just sharing how I’m managing the reality I have control over and that’s where my power lies in this moment, while still doing what I can to help those that need extra help.

Sending my love and peace to you, wherever you are in the world.

Robyn xxx